I am awake, I am alive, and this morning (as I have said so many times before in my life), all I can think is … “It is done”.

It is done – the longest night of the year is now behind us. The worst is over. It will be dark for sometime to come but by focusing on the fact that the worst is now over, we remind ourselves that the light is coming.

That fact – that teaching – the reality of December 21st has helped me through nights in shelters, bad days after a breakup, and utter days of lonlieness. Knowing that the violence, the insults, and even the first days alone were now behind me reminded me that if I was strong enough to survive the worst, I could do the rest.

But it takes time. There is no magic pill. There is no exercise routine that quickens the healing. There is just time and the suck until it is done but remember, the worst is now over.

Do not give into the temptation to escape. Do not run. For those actions condemn you to an eventual return to this pain so stay here, work through it, so you don’t have to come back.

2020 is now done and although we start the new year in lockdown here in my area, we do it with experience this time. We do it knowing we have survived lockdown before, we can again.

So hold your head high. Square your shoulders. Smile your most knowing grin for you, my friend, have survived the longest night and I for one am proud of you.

 
I love you! HUGSSSSSSSSSSSS
Sandi

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